Secondly happy new year, let's hope 2016 is kind to us all...
So, back to the blog.
I'm starting this blog with the purpose of having an outlet for my journey towards a slimmer me (hopefully). Let me say now, I'm a serial yoyo dieter and have tried everything you can imagine in the past - weight watchers, slimming world, long distance running, fasting etc etc. Nothing has worked permanently for me, in fact I'm bigger right now than I've ever been and to be bluntly honest I find my own appearance repulsive.
I'll be the first to admit I'm bone idle, I'm not looking for sympathy, I understand fully why I am the way I am. I eat too much crap and barely move. I have the body I deserve. It's not down to thyroid issues, slow metabolism or a naturally big boned frame, it's down to gluttony, laziness and most of all one thing which I believe I genuinely cannot help - a food addiction.
I've spent a large proportion of my life researching dieting and even trained as a personal trainer once a very long time ago! I absolutely genuinely believe that food addiction is a very real thing. It's a mental disorder, as real as alcohol or drug addiction, as real as depression or a broken arm. Being addicted to food is the bane of my life and it's also something which is near impossible to cure. It's not like smoking where you can just say no more and avoid temptation, plus stick a patch on to help. Food is all around us and essential to life. My addiction tells me that if I'm going to eat then I bloody well want to enjoy the meal, because a plate of lettuce is both unsatisfying and a wasted opportunity to enjoy something delicious to my mind. I don't eat to live, I live to eat and I wish that weren't the case but it is, plain and simple. How do I change that mindset? I'm not sure, but hopefully I will discover the answer along the way and reveal it in this blog.
I hope this year to be different, I won't be signing up to any slimming world or weight watchers class, I've been there done that, got the certificates and regained everything I lost plus more, multiple times. I don't believe an all out healthy eating diet is the way to go for me. It depresses me severely and I need something more realistic. If it takes me twice or even 3 times as long to reach a reasonable weight then so be it. I'd rather lose a pound a month forever than 6 pounds a week only for me to end up fatter than I ever was in 6 months time, AGAIN!
So I'll be making small changes. For now let me say that it's New Year's Day, as far as I'm concerned it's a kind of special day, so I won't be worrying too much just yet, I'll really begin to get back into my routine of normality from the 4th onwards when I return to work. Until then I'll relax and enjoy the weekend before the kids go back to school, because weekends and time together is valuable as far as I'm concerned. We will go for long walks with the dog and will no doubt eat crap, but I am mentally preparing myself for normality returning on Monday and along with it a healthier way of being (just not a regimented slimming world style of healthy!)
I hope you'll join me and hopefully we can share ideas and recipes along the way!
Until the next time!
Super Massive Wide Load 😜
